Moonspell Soulsick

I am only real at places I can not be
My right hand rebels and chops off the left
(the) hairy ape walks into stage
he tries to stay erect
the one who never slept
in order to be perfect
the arrogance of their hands
the joy of the regret
soulsick - good at things I never did
soulsick but skindeep, tense, frantic but relieved
soulsick but skindeep, tense, frantic but believed
I am only real at places I can not be
Dead liquid vigilant
Implanted into my sleep